Precious person

26Nov11

The term boyfriend isn’t what that is important to me. It is the person himself that is important to me.

He’s essential in my life. He made “boyfriend” be important and essential in my life. And if it wasn’t him. “boyfriend” will be nothing to me.

He’s not only a boyfriend, but also, my best friend. He’s the guy i want to term as, my soulmate.

Happy 2 years 8 months my love.

You’re so important, to me.

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24Nov11

Things are so uncertain that i don’t even know what’s going to happen the next moment.

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22Nov11

It gets so bad. Whenever outsiders(classmate) calls me skinny, i cant help but smile and keep quiet. I don’t know how to reply them.

In my mine, i’m thinking, in what ways do i look skinny to you? Or is it… Because you’re like me? Always thinking that other people ard them are skinny.

I don’t know. This issue is getting so out of hand. Sometimes, i pause for a while and think, why are my thoughts progressing at such a scary rate? I cant even control them.

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20Nov11

I’m so concious about my weight and body that i feel that my life is controlled by a set of numbers, kilograms, centimeters and inches. Its getting so intense that i can stand for half an hour each session in front of my full length mirror and scrutinize each part of my body. I look at my previous pictures and cant help but feel sorry for myself because i have gained so much weight. Is it real? Or is it just me? It’s 12.44 am and i’m still think about these issues when i’m supposed to be sleeping right now. Being a girl is so difficult.

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My soulmate

16Nov11

I’m so glad i found you, “fate” has never been in my dictionary until i met you again. Since then, i thank fate for our reunion. Even when i relate our story to others, many often remarked that it is fate.

I wonder how things will be like if i hadn’t met you again. If so, I wouldn’t be who i am today. i wouldn’t know the true meaning of concern, i wouldn’t know what true happiness and sadness feels like.

You’re my best friend who goes with me to places that i want to go, you’re my family who shower so much love and concern on me, my pillar of strength that made me hold on for such a long time during difficult times. My mental health, to tell me that i’m beautiful so that my self esteem will not go further down.

I want to spend this precious lifetime with you. See you next friday, my soulmate.

Love,
Gladys

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Coconutty Boyfriend

09Nov11

After today, i’ll probably have no one else who’s close enough to talk about personal things, well, except for my family. For the past 2 and a half years or so, i’ve been spending almost every time i have with boyfriend, going out for meals, shopping, watching movies, and just… Chilling out. It’s like… No one else is able to ease my discomfort and insecurity. Boyfriend has been a huge part of my life.

My heart gets heavy as this day approaches. I know, it’s just NS. He can still come out every friday night. But, it’ll feel so different, because i feel attached to him and each day, i look forward to seeing his smiles and listening to his voice. Each day, i look forward to him asking me out, and now, all of a sudden, it is all going to stop for the next 2 years. I know it’ll be tough to getting used to it, but Throughout these 2 years, i’ll definitely be a supportive girlfriend.

<3

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